TBT blog from March 13, 2012- the day after our warrior arrived!!
HAYDEN”S HERE!!
Hayden Jeter Dorsett blessed
this world with his highly anticipated arrival yesterday, Monday March 12th
at 5:32pm!
We were preparing for an
induction for today, Tuesday, but I received a phone call from an OB at CHOP
asking if I wished to move my induction up a day due to more staffing and an
overall slower day for deliveries. I had been up the previous 3 nights for over
3 hours each night worrying and researching about the low fluid level and so
when they offered a day earlier, I jumped on it!
We got to CHOP at 10:30am,
started induction at 12:00 and Hayden was born at 5:32. I will spare you all
the details in between! Throughout my labor I made it very clear to anyone who
entered that I wanted to be able to hold him after he was born if at all
possible. And thankfully, they followed through on that request. It was
unfortunately the fastest minute of my life, but I cherished every single
second of that minute and I deeply thank my husband for allowing me to be
selfish. Rob then cut the cord, to which he later confessed he wasn’t
sure if he wanted to, since knowing all problems with Hayden start as soon as
he is no longer attached to me.
But he did cut it and I’m glad
he did- not every father gets that chance.
Hayden was then taken to the
room next to us through a window Rob and I call the drive through window and
there they started his prostaglandin (the medicine keeping him alive) and did
other check-ups on him.
We got to watch a lot of this
through the window and our parents and sisters, as well as Jackson also came to
see him. Jackson was pretty much unfazed by it all but did ask a few times
“That’s my brother?” apparently on the walk back to the waiting area, he told
pappy “He’s really cute”.
Rob and I spent much of the late
evening with Hayden and again, Rob allowed me to be selfish and hold him the
entire time. We were told this may or may not be a possibility- that it often
depended on the nurse and how they felt about moving him around with his wires.
So far, we have been extremely lucky with both nurses- everyone has been
allowed to hold him and today I had another miracle of being able to nurse him!
Overall, we have had some major miracles and moments we weren’t sure would be
possible and we feel so blessed.
As far as Hayden’s diagnosis and
what’s next- we have yet to get word on whether he will need the 3-stage
reconstruction on his heart and are waiting for that possibly later today, if
not in the next two days. However, we were given some insight into his
echocardiogram and as of right now, the doctor seems to be leaning towards a
3-stage reconstruction and not just a repair of the aortic arch. This news has
been more than heartbreaking for Rob and I and we are both still trying to cope
with it. Even though it is not set in stone and there is still hope, we are
both struggling today with finding that hope.
For the past two months I have
been telling everyone, telling myself that I am preparing for the worst and
that he would need the 3-stage reconstruction. But after hearing some thoughts
from today, it is clear to me I was just fooling myself into that
belief. Especially after seeing him, hearing him, holding him- you
would never know he has a heart problem. It is a hard reality to grasp right
now.
As I head back to the CICU to
spend some time with our heart warrior, I beg you to pray that the insights
from today change and that Hayden does not become classified as an HLHS (Hypoplastic
left heart syndrome) baby but rather as a CHD (congenital heart defect) baby.
Both are devastating but one road is shorter, more manageable and more
promising than the other.
As always I thank you for your love, prayers,
support, phone calls, messages, donations, strength, good vibes, etc- we
continue to feel that love and even though we can’t always be strong, we are
grateful to pull strength from all of you….
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